A thought I had today
Today’s the last full day I will spend in the Santa Barbara area until I come back for graduation, or possibly for InterVarsity’s Senior Banquet. Both of those are in June. Today, my family and I went to my church in Isla Vista. Then, we sorted out which of my things I needed for camp this week and which I didn’t, my dad took off for home, and my mom, sister, and I had lunch together downtown. Per my request, they left me at the Borders there, where I spent the afternoon buying and reading books.
Then, I took the bus back up to Isla Vista to wait for the members of my carpool to get here. On the bus ride, I noticed the state of my mind.
During the first week of my freshman year, I remember feeling like I was a small child in an adult-sized animal mascot costume. The costume represented the role of “college student;” the point of the metaphor was that I felt like that role was too big for me to manage properly, and I wasn’t ready to fulfill it yet.
Today, I felt completely different. Instead of feeling like a child in an oversized costume, I now feel like a butterfly only just coming out of its chrysalis. I noticed today that I was remarkably ready to accept that the phase called college was behind me, that I was finished with it and off to live a completely different kind of life.